busy much..

lets see.. busy me.. my goodness!  life has been the same.. busyier than all get out.. sheesh!  my husband had the flu last week.. needless to say i was watching two toddlers for the past three days.. at least I didn't have to give the older one his medicine.. he's such a baby when he's ill.. "ohhh my head, *sniff*"

anyway.. i haven't had a chance to read any blogs in the last two weeks and am so behind.. oh well.. hopefully everyone else is enjoyin their life a little more than me at the moment..

i have tried to make a few changes for me.. listening to Christian music in the car.. tryin to ready my Bible every day.. missed a couple over the weekend (was on sicky patrol).. and am tryin to have a positive outlook..
I still haven't talked to the boss about a raise but get the feeling it isn't going to happen.. so now I need to start looking for a part time weekend job.. what fun that's going to be.. oh well.. gotta do what's gotta be done.. that's life.. if I could sell my car it would help.. also looking into getting back into school but am unsure on that for the moment - who knows..

well i've still got a mountain of paperwork to get done so time to get to it.. hope everyone else has a non-eventful monday..

out of commission.. sheesh!

well i have been extremely busy.. that and only a four day work week last week lol.. oh well.. my sister managed to thoroughly piss me off on Tuesday which caused me to screw up something i was working on, which made my day that much longer.. grrrr..
i have 5 sisters.. three older, two younger.. the (1)one closest to my age is a different for all practical purposes.. she is currently working but my mom is still paying her rent and probably her electric bill.. anyway.. the next sister (2) works here with mom and me.. she's been here longer and makes a whole $1.00 more an hour than me.. woohoo!  anyway.. sister number 1was having car issues and being the smart ass that I am I of course said to sister #2 "she probably doesn't even have the money to fix her car does she?" which is usually an accurate response.. well sister #2 said that I was rude?!? AS IF!  Honest maybe.. she said why do i always talk that way about sister #1.. well.. "it's a natural reflex" lol.. honest.. and generally she's there with me if not before me being "rude" about sister #1.. so i was not happy.. neither sister has the financial responsibility that I have and now i know they both make more money on the hour than i do.. boy that SUCKS!  i so need a different job.. which is my own fault i suppose but that's a whole different blog..

anyway.. after a pretty sucky day tuesday the week didn't get a whole lot better.. well maybe a little.. my youngest sister was having a type of school fund raiser - not sure i spelled that right - anyway.. they had a pizza night at Mr. Gattis.. well i told mom that I couldn't go cause i was broke, i thought immediately that she would offer to pay for mine because i knew she was paying for everyone else's... to my udder shock and amazement she didn't.. well not until MUCH later.. so eventually i did go with them so that wasn't a bad night except that they seemed to stay there FOREVER!..

thursday and friday we worked kinda late and so i had supper at their house.. was ok and i didn't have to cook or clean up - BONUS!! 

Saturday my hubby pissed me off.. i hate it when i get yelled at for no reason.. my little angel had just been outside playing and she's attempting potty training so she was bare bottomed.. and well, she did more then just tinkle and i went into the house and asked ding dong to help me out for a few moments.. well he was shaving so apparently i wasn't suppose to interrupt.. how in the hell was i suppose to know? sheesh.. so he pitches his little fit... and so i just wipe her little tushy myself with her squirming and me doing my best to keep something unmentionable on the bed and he's gettin on my last nerve!  he apologed later but my goodness - he said that he was sorry he yelled at me but when the shaving cream stays on his face to long it burns.. WTF?  we've lived together for almost 5 years and that's something he's never mentioned to me.. so how in the hell was i suppose to know? GRRRR!

so anyway.. we do grocery shopping and pretty much piss away the day running around.. he decides to wash both vehicles and being that he's outside and i need to fix dinner i expected that he could watch our daughter.. pretty normal i suppose, but do you think that was possible?  oh no.. so forget supper.. then i'm chasing her across the yard and she's trying to cross the street.. i'm at my witt's end and he's up there dryin off his truck.. makes me want to hit it with any thing handy.. even her playhouse!  but that too passes and she goes to play at her mema's house for a bit..

sunday we spend most of the day at my mothers.. my grandmother was 91 last week so this was a semblance of a birthday party.. i knew once we got there we'd be there for most of the day.. and my hubby was to busy playin video games with the older kiddos to watch his.. go figure..

well that's my last week in a nutshell.. i've got gobbs of work to do so i better get to it.. later all.

random thoughts

well.. hmm.. i'm utterly exhausted but that's typical.. i tried to stay up last night so that me and the hubby could work on the baby making.. but he i suppose assumed i was asleep and therefore decided to watch tv instead.. hmm.. then at 1:30 am decided it was time for bed.. go figure.. oh well..

my mother dear talked with the person that's doin her home study for her current adoption.. they are coming next week so of course she's frekin out.. and now i get to work monday but not here at the office, oh no.. i'll be at her house helping her clean it.. what fun for me..

is it my fault that her house looks like a tornado hit it?  uhm.. no.. and will i get paid for this holiday work? probably not.. and will i get any thanks or consideration for it at all? that's a definate NO.. you just have to  know my mom to understand her.. and somedays even i don't think i understand her..

for people that know me and well those that don't, you probably wonder why my mom has such a hold over my life.. sometimes i wonder that too.. i seriously do not like hurting her at all.. of course sometimes i think she takes great pride in hurting me.. and i could list oh so many specifics on that on but will refrain.. i just have a hard time saying no.. and if i ask her for something then OMG i'm asking for a mountain to be moved.. yeah, that's my life..

i could go into great detail about our rollercoaster family, i could even write a book (would probably be a best seller) but who's got the time for that.. just another random thought....

i've been reading about the girl that was kidnapped and held captive for 18 years.. i can't imagine that happening with my daughter.. i'd go crazy!  but i'd be so thankful that she was alive.. and i'd kill the bastard that took her, no one would have to worry about a trial or prision.. and all the drama around it.. he was a sex offender and no one really did check up on him thoroughly.. i realize that our system is overflowing with problems and issues and there aren't enough people to take care of everything but where can we draw the line?  how many people have to suffer?

then i did the smart thing i suppose and looked up known sex offenders in my area.. there's one literally down the street from me.. I FREAKED OUT!  now i know i'll be watching my little one like a hawk and be more overprotective than i am now.. our world is going down in flames isn't it.. i don't understand how anyone could harm a child in any way.. or how they could sexually attracted to children.. it makes no sense..

i can only pray that one day children will never have to face that again..

looks like 2

well i talked to the hubby and he's ready for baby number 2.. i'm thinkin he's more ready for the makin the baby than actually having one.. lol.. oh well.. i suppose that is the funner part of the process..

anyway.. boy what a long freakin day!  it's almost time to go home thank goodness and boy am i ready.. i'm here alone, again.. shocker.. everyone else leaves me to work and answer the fricken phones.. fun for me.. yuck!  i just finnished a call with the IRS for a client and they will now have to wait another 6 weeks to get their refund.. the world is full of just wonderful people!  i don't know who has less sense and am not sure i want to contemplate that either..

movin on.. i'm ready to head home and play with my little lima bean.. she's so beautiful.. her mema bought her a new dress and some shoes yesterday.. the shoes are a bit small but she likes wearing them and i believe she's worn the soles a bit much for them to be taken back.. oh well.. they were only $6 so no biggie.. that and i didn't pay for em.. lol..

well i need to do something before i leave here so this is it for now.. later all.. and wish me luck with the baby department.. the hubby will live good for a while anyway.. lol