baby or no baby??

questions and answers.. do i really want to have another baby? am i ready to have another baby? can we financially afford another baby? well that one I know.. the answer is no! and no i'm not currently pregnant for anyone who is wondering.. i had my lovely yearly appointment today and i talked to my doctor about weight loss surgery as well as possibly having another child.. he's excited that i'm checking into the weightloss surgery but if i wanted to have another baby i really would need to do that first.. yay.. something else to put me off longer.. but i do want a baby because i don't want Nataleigh to be an only child.. she's so spoiled now, and it will only get worse if she's not having to share.. lol..

so i'm gonna have to talk to the hubby tonight to see if he's interested in having another baby or if he's satisfied with only having one.. he wants a son so i'm figuring that he's ready now.. but i don't know.. what if he's not ready? then i have the weight loss surgery and have to wait and possibly can't get pregnant again.. then what? i just don't know.. i do know this much - my mother thinks i shouldn't have another one.. she's made that abundantly clear.. i know financially the way things are now there is no way we could afford another child.. but if circumstances were to change it could be possible.. i don't know..

questions.. *sigh* in all honesty i really do want another baby.. and i never thought i would want the first one.. but she's the light of my world.. true it makes life more difficult and i'll probably never catch up on my sleep.. but she's worth it.. i don't know.. it's just something to ponder.. if you would have told me 10 years ago that i'd have a daughter and was wanting another baby i would have laughed at you.. i mean flat out rolling on the floor laughing.. i didn't want that.. but now, i don't really remember my life before being a mom..

well i'll have to have "the talk" with the hubby tonght and fill you in tomorrow or so on his reply.. so we'll just wait and see..