ready for a break..

i know that i'm wishing my life away on a daily basis.. i'm always ready for the weekend even as early as monday.. you spend all week waiting on the weekend and then it's here and gone before you can blink! that sucks! the weekend should be longer - but then we'd probably just want more right? right.. oh well..

i have a friend, (well i guess you could call her that, we were friends in high school and the only time i talk to her now is on facebook) anyway.. she's recently divorced with two children with her first husband and is now currently planning wedding number 2 with new man, new baby, and parent's not that happy.. i know at my age and hers our parent's ideas of what we need shouldn't matter but, when you live as close to your parents as she does it get's a bit wierd.. they live not 20 feet apart! (that's wayyy to close for comfort for me) but my point.. why would anyone want to get married again.. it's not that her and her first husband hated each other - well at least i don't think so - but now she's marrying another man? why? live with him, get what you need, and then send him packin when you're done with him..

terrible right? well think about it.. if you get married and you have problems and want to separate then you have a divorce, which gets costly and can get ugly, and if there are children involved then you're tied to this person forever.. i do understand marrying once - every woman wants a dream wedding (they may not admit it but deep down they want it).. but why twice.. if you just live together and things get bad then one of you can leave.. no strings.. no divorce.. no legalities..

when my husband first moved in with me i initially thought my mom would freak out, but she didn't.. she said it would be better to live with him and see if it would work first.. this way i would know more about him and his habbits.. and it was my apartment so if things went sour i could kick him to the curb.. a year later he proposed and a year after that we were married.. i love him dearly but would i marry again? no..

i miss my personal space and having my own things and not having to worry about his.. true now we have a daughter so therefore nothing is mine - it's all hers. but there are times when i would still love to just do whatever i wanted to and not have to worry about what he wanted to do.. my little girl i could take with me anywhere i wanted to go - i'm not the partying kind so bar hoppin wouldn't be on the agenda.. but having a husband i have to make sure it fits into his schedule or that he wants to go.. even down to what we watch on tv together.. i HATE the game show network now.. i'm getting ready to cancel it.. back to my point.. when you're not "attached" then you make all of your own decisions and if there are any consequenses they are yours and yours alone.. yes i know i'm rambling.. sue me.. anyway..

like i said, i'd never do it again.. get what you need from a man then send him out the door :) anyway.. i've rambled enough so this is all for now.. later all!