i will survive.. lol

well i made it through yet another deadline.. woohoo! seemed like people were crawling out of the woodwork.. sheesh!

i'm so tired yet i know what my weekend is going to shape itself into.. already said i'd help the family with closing the pool and the a/c stuff on Sunday.. and i know Troy will sleep in tomorrow so no rest for me.. such is my life.. i'm just exhausted..

was watching my soap opera today and it about made me cry.. now i know i'm tired.. oh well.. if i could just go home and rest i'd probably make it.. upside is i'm going to start getting a day off once a week.. troy's gonna love that - wouldn't be bad if he wasn't at home in the mornins but he will be.. lol.. let's see how that goes..

well this is it for now.. i'll have to catch everything up later.. oh, and the Me-ow is doin fine.. i'm thinkin that's what his name is going to be.. lol.. just gotta get him de-clawed now.. fun..

wow.. been a while

well sorry to say i've been out of touch for a bit.. hmm.. oh well.. quick catch up - same old crap different day :).. lol..

my little angel is getting bigger and bigger.. she's just so beautiful!!  ahh motherhood.. has it joys somedays..

last night i think i did a no no.. i stayed up late instead of going to bed with my hubby.. i didn't want sex - awful aren't i.. oh well.. i just wansn't in the mood.. is that wrong? i would rather sleep, which i didn't do cause i was watching tv but he was at least asleep when i got to bed 30 minutes later.. i'm a terrible wife.. sue me..

we've got a new pet.. my daughter calls it  mee-ow.. it's a new kitten.. my other two don't like it so therefore this one is inside instead of outside.. fun for me.. oh well.. it's at least loveable and tolerant apparently because Nataleigh is mean to it and it is still loving on her.. i'm working on the "be nice to the me-ow" but it seems to be going in one ear and out the other.. oh well..

i'm still tryin to sell my old car.. with no luck.. oh well.. hopefull that will work out soon too.. well i gotta get back to work.. have a great week folks!

busy much..

lets see.. busy me.. my goodness!  life has been the same.. busyier than all get out.. sheesh!  my husband had the flu last week.. needless to say i was watching two toddlers for the past three days.. at least I didn't have to give the older one his medicine.. he's such a baby when he's ill.. "ohhh my head, *sniff*"

anyway.. i haven't had a chance to read any blogs in the last two weeks and am so behind.. oh well.. hopefully everyone else is enjoyin their life a little more than me at the moment..

i have tried to make a few changes for me.. listening to Christian music in the car.. tryin to ready my Bible every day.. missed a couple over the weekend (was on sicky patrol).. and am tryin to have a positive outlook..
I still haven't talked to the boss about a raise but get the feeling it isn't going to happen.. so now I need to start looking for a part time weekend job.. what fun that's going to be.. oh well.. gotta do what's gotta be done.. that's life.. if I could sell my car it would help.. also looking into getting back into school but am unsure on that for the moment - who knows..

well i've still got a mountain of paperwork to get done so time to get to it.. hope everyone else has a non-eventful monday..

out of commission.. sheesh!

well i have been extremely busy.. that and only a four day work week last week lol.. oh well.. my sister managed to thoroughly piss me off on Tuesday which caused me to screw up something i was working on, which made my day that much longer.. grrrr..
i have 5 sisters.. three older, two younger.. the (1)one closest to my age is a different for all practical purposes.. she is currently working but my mom is still paying her rent and probably her electric bill.. anyway.. the next sister (2) works here with mom and me.. she's been here longer and makes a whole $1.00 more an hour than me.. woohoo!  anyway.. sister number 1was having car issues and being the smart ass that I am I of course said to sister #2 "she probably doesn't even have the money to fix her car does she?" which is usually an accurate response.. well sister #2 said that I was rude?!? AS IF!  Honest maybe.. she said why do i always talk that way about sister #1.. well.. "it's a natural reflex" lol.. honest.. and generally she's there with me if not before me being "rude" about sister #1.. so i was not happy.. neither sister has the financial responsibility that I have and now i know they both make more money on the hour than i do.. boy that SUCKS!  i so need a different job.. which is my own fault i suppose but that's a whole different blog..

anyway.. after a pretty sucky day tuesday the week didn't get a whole lot better.. well maybe a little.. my youngest sister was having a type of school fund raiser - not sure i spelled that right - anyway.. they had a pizza night at Mr. Gattis.. well i told mom that I couldn't go cause i was broke, i thought immediately that she would offer to pay for mine because i knew she was paying for everyone else's... to my udder shock and amazement she didn't.. well not until MUCH later.. so eventually i did go with them so that wasn't a bad night except that they seemed to stay there FOREVER!..

thursday and friday we worked kinda late and so i had supper at their house.. was ok and i didn't have to cook or clean up - BONUS!! 

Saturday my hubby pissed me off.. i hate it when i get yelled at for no reason.. my little angel had just been outside playing and she's attempting potty training so she was bare bottomed.. and well, she did more then just tinkle and i went into the house and asked ding dong to help me out for a few moments.. well he was shaving so apparently i wasn't suppose to interrupt.. how in the hell was i suppose to know? sheesh.. so he pitches his little fit... and so i just wipe her little tushy myself with her squirming and me doing my best to keep something unmentionable on the bed and he's gettin on my last nerve!  he apologed later but my goodness - he said that he was sorry he yelled at me but when the shaving cream stays on his face to long it burns.. WTF?  we've lived together for almost 5 years and that's something he's never mentioned to me.. so how in the hell was i suppose to know? GRRRR!

so anyway.. we do grocery shopping and pretty much piss away the day running around.. he decides to wash both vehicles and being that he's outside and i need to fix dinner i expected that he could watch our daughter.. pretty normal i suppose, but do you think that was possible?  oh no.. so forget supper.. then i'm chasing her across the yard and she's trying to cross the street.. i'm at my witt's end and he's up there dryin off his truck.. makes me want to hit it with any thing handy.. even her playhouse!  but that too passes and she goes to play at her mema's house for a bit..

sunday we spend most of the day at my mothers.. my grandmother was 91 last week so this was a semblance of a birthday party.. i knew once we got there we'd be there for most of the day.. and my hubby was to busy playin video games with the older kiddos to watch his.. go figure..

well that's my last week in a nutshell.. i've got gobbs of work to do so i better get to it.. later all.

random thoughts

well.. hmm.. i'm utterly exhausted but that's typical.. i tried to stay up last night so that me and the hubby could work on the baby making.. but he i suppose assumed i was asleep and therefore decided to watch tv instead.. hmm.. then at 1:30 am decided it was time for bed.. go figure.. oh well..

my mother dear talked with the person that's doin her home study for her current adoption.. they are coming next week so of course she's frekin out.. and now i get to work monday but not here at the office, oh no.. i'll be at her house helping her clean it.. what fun for me..

is it my fault that her house looks like a tornado hit it?  uhm.. no.. and will i get paid for this holiday work? probably not.. and will i get any thanks or consideration for it at all? that's a definate NO.. you just have to  know my mom to understand her.. and somedays even i don't think i understand her..

for people that know me and well those that don't, you probably wonder why my mom has such a hold over my life.. sometimes i wonder that too.. i seriously do not like hurting her at all.. of course sometimes i think she takes great pride in hurting me.. and i could list oh so many specifics on that on but will refrain.. i just have a hard time saying no.. and if i ask her for something then OMG i'm asking for a mountain to be moved.. yeah, that's my life..

i could go into great detail about our rollercoaster family, i could even write a book (would probably be a best seller) but who's got the time for that.. just another random thought....

i've been reading about the girl that was kidnapped and held captive for 18 years.. i can't imagine that happening with my daughter.. i'd go crazy!  but i'd be so thankful that she was alive.. and i'd kill the bastard that took her, no one would have to worry about a trial or prision.. and all the drama around it.. he was a sex offender and no one really did check up on him thoroughly.. i realize that our system is overflowing with problems and issues and there aren't enough people to take care of everything but where can we draw the line?  how many people have to suffer?

then i did the smart thing i suppose and looked up known sex offenders in my area.. there's one literally down the street from me.. I FREAKED OUT!  now i know i'll be watching my little one like a hawk and be more overprotective than i am now.. our world is going down in flames isn't it.. i don't understand how anyone could harm a child in any way.. or how they could sexually attracted to children.. it makes no sense..

i can only pray that one day children will never have to face that again..

looks like 2

well i talked to the hubby and he's ready for baby number 2.. i'm thinkin he's more ready for the makin the baby than actually having one.. lol.. oh well.. i suppose that is the funner part of the process..

anyway.. boy what a long freakin day!  it's almost time to go home thank goodness and boy am i ready.. i'm here alone, again.. shocker.. everyone else leaves me to work and answer the fricken phones.. fun for me.. yuck!  i just finnished a call with the IRS for a client and they will now have to wait another 6 weeks to get their refund.. the world is full of just wonderful people!  i don't know who has less sense and am not sure i want to contemplate that either..

movin on.. i'm ready to head home and play with my little lima bean.. she's so beautiful.. her mema bought her a new dress and some shoes yesterday.. the shoes are a bit small but she likes wearing them and i believe she's worn the soles a bit much for them to be taken back.. oh well.. they were only $6 so no biggie.. that and i didn't pay for em.. lol..

well i need to do something before i leave here so this is it for now.. later all.. and wish me luck with the baby department.. the hubby will live good for a while anyway.. lol

baby or no baby??

questions and answers.. do i really want to have another baby? am i ready to have another baby? can we financially afford another baby? well that one I know.. the answer is no! and no i'm not currently pregnant for anyone who is wondering.. i had my lovely yearly appointment today and i talked to my doctor about weight loss surgery as well as possibly having another child.. he's excited that i'm checking into the weightloss surgery but if i wanted to have another baby i really would need to do that first.. yay.. something else to put me off longer.. but i do want a baby because i don't want Nataleigh to be an only child.. she's so spoiled now, and it will only get worse if she's not having to share.. lol..

so i'm gonna have to talk to the hubby tonight to see if he's interested in having another baby or if he's satisfied with only having one.. he wants a son so i'm figuring that he's ready now.. but i don't know.. what if he's not ready? then i have the weight loss surgery and have to wait and possibly can't get pregnant again.. then what? i just don't know.. i do know this much - my mother thinks i shouldn't have another one.. she's made that abundantly clear.. i know financially the way things are now there is no way we could afford another child.. but if circumstances were to change it could be possible.. i don't know..

questions.. *sigh* in all honesty i really do want another baby.. and i never thought i would want the first one.. but she's the light of my world.. true it makes life more difficult and i'll probably never catch up on my sleep.. but she's worth it.. i don't know.. it's just something to ponder.. if you would have told me 10 years ago that i'd have a daughter and was wanting another baby i would have laughed at you.. i mean flat out rolling on the floor laughing.. i didn't want that.. but now, i don't really remember my life before being a mom..

well i'll have to have "the talk" with the hubby tonght and fill you in tomorrow or so on his reply.. so we'll just wait and see..

zzzzzzzz

busy much?? well i could say i've been extremely busy and that's why i haven't blogged in days - but that'd be a lie.. well kinda anyway.. i was busy yesterday but tuesday and wednesday not so much.. i was watching tv on my computer at work.. yeah yeah.. sue me! i was bord and no one was here! of course then yesterday i was swamped and today has been monday all over again but hey.. at least i did enjoy myself a little..

Nataleigh hasn't slept good for the past 2 nights.. i don't know what the deal was Wednesday night - she just woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep.. and me not getting to sleep from 2:30 am to 5:30 am is a killer! mommy needs sleep! and last night she had diarrhea and her little bottom was sore so she didn't sleep well then either, plus we had company overnight so i couldn't sleep with her in the spare bed cause someone else was in it.. and everytime she cried i thought she'd wake everyone else up - so i simply had maybe 8 hours of sleep in the last 2 days.. so i'm tired..

i could vent about my mother but that's a given - long story short, my husband pissed her off again.. i think that's a general thing with those two.. oh well.. and of course who is stuck in the middle?? why me of course.. how fun is that! NOT!.. anyway.. it's not worth gripin about..

i'm exhausted and ready to be outta here and maybe can leave early but have to wait on a client.. therefore here i sit typing my little heart out..

i went to the doctor and i'm healthy as a horse, yet overweight.. duh.. i already figured that part.. so now i'm on diet pills and a low calorie diet.. the hard part is eating 6 times a day.. i don't know how i'm gonna manage that.. but i'll have to try and work it in.. fun..

well this is it for now.. until next time.. or until i fall asleep! later folks

stresssssss

for some lovely reason i feel as if my head is going to freakin explode! my stress level all of a sudden has gone from average to GRRRR!!! part of it i know - normal everyday work crap.. other is family related which ALWAYS occurs when you work with and for your family! my sister and my mother drive me totally crazy and what do i get out of it? a job.. that's it.. well and a cell phone.. one perk.. somedays i wonder why i continue to do this to myself.. i really wish i had the courage to just tell them all to stick it and find something else.. if i ever do get the nerve to do that though i need to figure up my time so that i know for sure what money i have left "on reserve" here.. long story short for that - i don't get paid overtime, it's accoumulated and then i can get extra paychecks..

all i can think about when my family is acting like jerks, like i owe them more than what i give, is that i am the one that planned two wedding showers and i know one baby shower for my lovely sisters and i didn't get squat! the wedding part i can sorta understand because i told one sister i didn't want one simply because i didn't want her doin it.. the other sister could have planned one! and a baby shower? do you think that was maybe too much to ask? i mean this was only my FIRST child.. and do you think that made a difference? uhm.. no.. even though my pregnancy was not "at a good time" for them you'd think they'd want to do something.. but nope.. i'm way to low on the totem pole i suppose..

oh well.. that's my gripin for the day.. hopefully tomorrow will be better..

oh oh .. good note for the day.. have had the first call on selling my car :) hopefully it'll sell soon, i just have to find the title..

this portion of my friday SUCKS!

well it appears that every idiot that lives within a 50 mile radius is calling here today.. grrrr.. city taxes are past due and of course they're trying to collect.. for starters they charge way to much and they charge business on their gross profit and not their net - which is wrong! companies may take in 60,000 dollars but after their expenses they may make nothing! yet they have to pay taxes on the full 60,000.. tell me how this makes sense.. at least the other local tax people tax businesses on their net.. sheesh!

and now the boss can't find a file.. just re-do the freakin form and move on to something else.. i mean sheesh! if she'd have broken down the figures on the tax return she would have known what figures to use on this person's form but ohhh no.. that's to "complicated".. it seems like more work for her - but it saves my ass many times.. oh well.. so much for my ideas.. GRRR!!

hmmmm

well it appears i've taken a few days off.. lol.. i wish.. just been too busy at work to blog.. someting is wrong with that picture isn't it.. oh well..

life is suppose to be complicated.. if it was easy then it wouldn't be any fun i suppose.. i went to my first doctors appt about weight management.. what fun that was.. Nat Nat got bored way to quickly.. i'll have to have mom pick her up next time.. but i did talk to the PA and then they took some blood - 5 fricken vials! oh well.. i only have a small bruise so she did a good job.. Nataleigh kept looking at the nurse like 'and what do you think you're doin to my mommy?'.. it was too cute! i have to go back next week for a follow-up on the labs.. then she's going to put me on a diet and maybe some diet pills.. yay for that :( i want to have weight loss surgery but according to my health insurance i have to have a supervised plan with my doctor for 6 months.. i should have started this in May.. then i'd be ready by November or December.. now i'll have to wait until after tax season.. yay for that.. which means i have to now wait 9 months.. let's just keep putting my life on hold to make everyone elses easier.. ugh..

oh well.. there is a new procedure that is completely different.. i wouldn't miss much work - maybe 2 days.. and then maybe i could go ahead and get this done.. i've got to do something.. if it were up to me i'd have it done TOMORROW!.. but it's not so anyway..

movin on.. it's 4:40 and i'll be outta here in 20 minutes.. i'm so ready to go.. i just want to go home and spend some time with my little one.. mom thinks i should stop visiting with Troy's parents every night.. i think they enjoy seeing Nataleigh.. i don't leave her with them we just visit - she plays and they watch her and laugh.. i'm not going to quit.. we may start staying for shorter periods of time but i still think she needs to spend as much time with them as she can.. i would have loved to be able to do that as a child..

time to get back to work.. for the next 15 minutes anyway.. good evening all!!

wondering

i'm wondering if this is worth the effort.. all i hear from everyone is that i'm wasting time.. oh well.. but i do think it's good for me to help me remember things.. my memory sucks so any extra help would be good.. i just get tired of the drama..

*sigh* most blogs i read are people sharing information on important issues or things they're working on or interested in - my blogs are personal vent sessions.. it is nice to know that someone is reading them.. but does anyone have to read about me to make me feel validated? not really..

i just wonder if there is any hope of me ever being truly happy with my life.. i don't like my job.. my family gets on my nerves.. other than Nat Nat.. she's my angel :) i'm financially unstable.. i just don't know.. i just need something and am not sure where to find it..

new car and cheese dip (not related - lol)

ok.. so i have a new car.. 2009 Chevy Mailbu - standard model.. yeah i'd love all the frills but i don't like the car payment.. so anyway.. it had some peeling paint over the right front tire and had some dings over the drivers side door.. so it's been in the shop since monday and they said it would probably be ready today.. well my husband called them this morning and guess what? they gave him the run around.. lol.. go figure.. he should have asked all his questions when he dropped the freakin thing off! he called me and said it could probably be tomorrow.. i wasn't as unhappy as he was.. well not really - what can you do.. anyhoo.. i called and asked for the service department straight off.. (which he should have done) i told the girl who i was and what i wanted to know.. i had to hold for maybe 20 - 30 seconds.. then she came back and said it would be ready after lunch.. lol.. yeah, i call and get good answers - SHOCKING! ISN'T IT! oh well.. so i should have my car back tonight and be able to drive it tomorrow.. fun for me huh.. oh well.. so he's pissy (typical) and i just don't care.. yes i want the car back because i'm the one who's going to be payin the payment, but he's the one who took it in and didn't make an effort to find out anything.. so i think that's his problem..

next..

i'm at work alone again today - thus the long blog lol :) mom is working on her house again.. fun for her.. wonder if she'd come and clean mine when she was done?? probably not.. oh well.. i'd just so rather spend my time playing with my little angel.. she'll only be little for so long and before i know it she'll think i'm wierd and either be on the phone or locked in her room - except that she ain't gettin a lock :)

movin on..

it's almost friday but do i have big plans for the weekend? not really.. his family is having some kind of reunion and i've got to make cheese dip for his sister.. yay.. oh well.. i like her so it's not a biggie.. Troy said something about making a blueberry jello salad.. yay.. i hate that.. yuck! i'm just not a jello fan and i really don't like blueberries.. if he'd use strawberries i might eat it.. i said might mind you.. the cheese dip is easy and it generally goes over well..

1 lb ground beef - browned and drained
1 lb sausage - browned and drained
1 can cream of mushroom soup
1 box Velveeta (or generic) cheese
1 box Mexican Velveeta (or generic) cheese - i like the mild
1 jar salsa (i usually put mine in the food processor but it's not necessary)
1 can Rotel tomatoes and green chillies (optional)

after you brown the beef and sausage place all ingredients into a crock pot and cook until melted.. if you like it spicy then use the hot varieties of sausage, mexican cheese, and salsa as well as adding the rotel tomatoes and green chilies.. if you like it mild then leave out the rotel tomatoes and use mild sausage and cheese.. my mom has issues with chunky meat so i generally chop that in the food processor too. which makes for easier bites :) you can eat with your favorite chips.. i usually get Tostitos scoops, but any white corn chip works.. enjoy!

ok, i've blogged and included a recipe.. thinking i'm good for now.. have a great day ya'll..

ready for a break..

i know that i'm wishing my life away on a daily basis.. i'm always ready for the weekend even as early as monday.. you spend all week waiting on the weekend and then it's here and gone before you can blink! that sucks! the weekend should be longer - but then we'd probably just want more right? right.. oh well..

i have a friend, (well i guess you could call her that, we were friends in high school and the only time i talk to her now is on facebook) anyway.. she's recently divorced with two children with her first husband and is now currently planning wedding number 2 with new man, new baby, and parent's not that happy.. i know at my age and hers our parent's ideas of what we need shouldn't matter but, when you live as close to your parents as she does it get's a bit wierd.. they live not 20 feet apart! (that's wayyy to close for comfort for me) but my point.. why would anyone want to get married again.. it's not that her and her first husband hated each other - well at least i don't think so - but now she's marrying another man? why? live with him, get what you need, and then send him packin when you're done with him..

terrible right? well think about it.. if you get married and you have problems and want to separate then you have a divorce, which gets costly and can get ugly, and if there are children involved then you're tied to this person forever.. i do understand marrying once - every woman wants a dream wedding (they may not admit it but deep down they want it).. but why twice.. if you just live together and things get bad then one of you can leave.. no strings.. no divorce.. no legalities..

when my husband first moved in with me i initially thought my mom would freak out, but she didn't.. she said it would be better to live with him and see if it would work first.. this way i would know more about him and his habbits.. and it was my apartment so if things went sour i could kick him to the curb.. a year later he proposed and a year after that we were married.. i love him dearly but would i marry again? no..

i miss my personal space and having my own things and not having to worry about his.. true now we have a daughter so therefore nothing is mine - it's all hers. but there are times when i would still love to just do whatever i wanted to and not have to worry about what he wanted to do.. my little girl i could take with me anywhere i wanted to go - i'm not the partying kind so bar hoppin wouldn't be on the agenda.. but having a husband i have to make sure it fits into his schedule or that he wants to go.. even down to what we watch on tv together.. i HATE the game show network now.. i'm getting ready to cancel it.. back to my point.. when you're not "attached" then you make all of your own decisions and if there are any consequenses they are yours and yours alone.. yes i know i'm rambling.. sue me.. anyway..

like i said, i'd never do it again.. get what you need from a man then send him out the door :) anyway.. i've rambled enough so this is all for now.. later all!

tuesday

well my sister decided to take her daughter out of kindergarten.. which i think is a good idea.. she's not mature enough - of course this is a 4 year old (will be 5 in september) and so how mature could she be?? anyway.. i don't think she's ready and now they're startin to get a clue..

my little angel was ill over the weekend.. fun for me right? oh well.. i've had allergies my whole life and i knew she'd have them too.. so no shockers there..

brought the kittens in the house last night cause i didn't want them to have to swim instead of sleep! boy what a storm! the freakin satalite went out two or three times.. and of course when i was tryin to watch something - go figure..

movin on.. the car is in the shop and will probably be there until thursday.. a friggen new car and it's in the shop.. perturbes me still.. and no one asked when it would be ready.. my lovely husband says "when they're done they'll call and i'll go get it".. well hello, i wanna know when it'll be ready.. cause it's the car I'M suppose to be driving! my husbands intelligence sometimes worries me..

bill are due again and i'm broke.. shocker.. i've got to find a way to make more money and don't have the slightest idea how.. if i could get a raise that would help.. if i could just get ahead it would help.. but i don't know what to do.. *sigh* guess i'll always be broke..

well, i better get back to work.. i know there's got to be more out there, i just don't know where to look..

my sister.. sheesh

my sister is two years older than me.. has a 4 year old and i swear is a puss! Her little girl started kindergarten this past wednesday and the school she is going to has really stupid rules.. the one that is buggin me the most right now is that she can't walk her daughter to class after today.. WTF? she's 4 years old and her mommy can't walk her to the door? what is wrong with this picture? true little bit will be 5 on sept 3 but right now she's still 4.. doesn't that deserve a little extra somethin? and my sister is to stupid to push.. not me.. i see me now in four years..
"excuse me.. Mrs.. S.. you can't walk Nat to the classroom." - and just who made that stuipd rule? "it's school policy maam". well i pay for this school, your salary, and the salary of the principal so if i want to walk my daughter to her class you can bet your ass i'm gonna! and at that point i'll just keep walking :).. there is no law or regulation that states that i can't do it so i'm gonna do what i think is right.. screw em.. but my daughter will go to a different school than my niece.. and hopefully they aren't as STUPID!

i don't get people..

well it's almost the weekend.. i've got about an hour and then i'm outta here! TGIF! but what to do with my weekend? hmm.. play time with the little one.. maybe it'll be warm enough that she can get into her little pool.. that i'm hoping for.. i'm also gonna work on the potty thing this weekend.. probably to soon in my opinion but i'm listening to the grandmothers.. yes they've both raised more kiddos than i have but she's only 15 months old.. ugh.. oh well.. i need to do a few more things before i get outta here.. have fun folks!

newbie

well i'm a newbie to this blog site.. i'll probably find my blogs from myspace and try posting them here.. i might feel a little less inhibited in typing things where people aren't familiar with me.. i like being unknown.. my life, like everyone elses is screwy.. why should it be perfect? lol.. right.. oh well.. i have a 15 month old daughter, a husband that's younger than me - who by the way gets on my nerves on an almost daily basis.. i'm kinda figuring that's normal.. you can't like everyone all the time right? well i can't anyway.. oh well.. i'm working in a job that i don't love, it's ok and it provides a paycheck but i don't love it.. i have a degree in teaching as well as a masters in special ed and i'm working for my mother in an income tax office.. i guess there is something to say for job security - that and a cell phone keeps me here.. well it's almost time to call it a day so until next time..