stresssssss

for some lovely reason i feel as if my head is going to freakin explode! my stress level all of a sudden has gone from average to GRRRR!!! part of it i know - normal everyday work crap.. other is family related which ALWAYS occurs when you work with and for your family! my sister and my mother drive me totally crazy and what do i get out of it? a job.. that's it.. well and a cell phone.. one perk.. somedays i wonder why i continue to do this to myself.. i really wish i had the courage to just tell them all to stick it and find something else.. if i ever do get the nerve to do that though i need to figure up my time so that i know for sure what money i have left "on reserve" here.. long story short for that - i don't get paid overtime, it's accoumulated and then i can get extra paychecks..

all i can think about when my family is acting like jerks, like i owe them more than what i give, is that i am the one that planned two wedding showers and i know one baby shower for my lovely sisters and i didn't get squat! the wedding part i can sorta understand because i told one sister i didn't want one simply because i didn't want her doin it.. the other sister could have planned one! and a baby shower? do you think that was maybe too much to ask? i mean this was only my FIRST child.. and do you think that made a difference? uhm.. no.. even though my pregnancy was not "at a good time" for them you'd think they'd want to do something.. but nope.. i'm way to low on the totem pole i suppose..

oh well.. that's my gripin for the day.. hopefully tomorrow will be better..

oh oh .. good note for the day.. have had the first call on selling my car :) hopefully it'll sell soon, i just have to find the title..